#130710

AYEOOO !
Well today was the first day at school in term 3 and also starting the FRIGGEN IB ! D=
This morning I woke up, I just like stared at the ceiling and I swear I was going to cry because there was DAMN SCHOOL ! But today was better than I imagined. The teachers that I have are cool I guess and Cathy is in the same Chemistry and Psych class as me ^_^ YOOHOO
Guess I'm not total loner XD

Also, I'm planning to be REALLY anti-social so I can focus on my school work and all =="
But I am also planning to give up on this whole korean boy obsessed thing ...
With this kpop addiction thing, it just makes me dream about trying out for being a singer and becoming one. I dont think it hurts to dream.. but if i keep dreaming, I will keep believing that I will become a singer one day - which is most unlikely.
Dreaming is wonderful but dreaming about something that will never happen ... that just makes me feel pathetic.

And when I think about it... tears will just flow out of my eyes - that can't be helped. To me, it's like watching a sad scene from an asian drama... TT__TT

WHY AM I BEING SO NEGATIVE? T_T

Welll I was hoping to be blogging with a positive attitude but soz TT I dont think can today.
Laters.

#210510

Hey hey
havent blogged since last year i think :S
anyways QA....>>
omgeee besides the people, everything else is gay.
Everyday seems like a routine - u know. Go to school, Go home from school, do work and sleep and that all happens all over again. Even the weekends are like are routine.
I've always wanted to be out there experiencing different things because I want to live life to the fullest ! But... to me, all things that I want to happen or wait for, they never happen. And even though I am not waiting for it, it just still doesn't find me. And when I try to picture my future, I just don't get a positive feeling... it is just blank.
I just hope that one day, I won't be able to care about anything at all. Looking at stars for a whole night or like lying in a field of flowers would be the only thing I want to do.
Every day, I just feel incomplete and empty. And even though I smile and laugh with friends, I am not sure if I am feeling true happiness or not. And there are times when I just really want to cry my heart and baul my eyes out.
Maybe just one day I can experience something that will make me feel like I am eating the sweetest candy, floating in the air and flying around... but in this world, I don't think I can have feelings like those.
But for a girl at my age, what am I meant to be thinking about?
- sighhhh -
Well I hope to come back on with new hopes and a better feelings.