#210510

Hey hey
havent blogged since last year i think :S
anyways QA....>>
omgeee besides the people, everything else is gay.
Everyday seems like a routine - u know. Go to school, Go home from school, do work and sleep and that all happens all over again. Even the weekends are like are routine.
I've always wanted to be out there experiencing different things because I want to live life to the fullest ! But... to me, all things that I want to happen or wait for, they never happen. And even though I am not waiting for it, it just still doesn't find me. And when I try to picture my future, I just don't get a positive feeling... it is just blank.
I just hope that one day, I won't be able to care about anything at all. Looking at stars for a whole night or like lying in a field of flowers would be the only thing I want to do.
Every day, I just feel incomplete and empty. And even though I smile and laugh with friends, I am not sure if I am feeling true happiness or not. And there are times when I just really want to cry my heart and baul my eyes out.
Maybe just one day I can experience something that will make me feel like I am eating the sweetest candy, floating in the air and flying around... but in this world, I don't think I can have feelings like those.
But for a girl at my age, what am I meant to be thinking about?
- sighhhh -
Well I hope to come back on with new hopes and a better feelings.